hi Im new
Hi my name is Ryn, Im 21 from new york. I ride horses, I love to cook, I hostess at Uno's and Im going to school in the spring for culinary arts.
I dont even know how to begin talking about this. My thoughts are not very organized so please bear with me.
I have been dealing with anorexia and bulimia for about 4 years now. This spring semester I lost so much weight I got very weak and sick and ended up in the hospital. I didnt gain to much weight back because I continued restricting and purging just not as much. Than I became pregnant and i gained at least 10lbs. I lost the baby :'( and I returned to my awful eating habits. Tonight I barely ate but I purged anyway. I havent been able to stop myself it has gotten very bad this week. I laied on my bed tonight and debated in my head whether to do it or not and I did. I want to stop. My life is coming together now in just about every other aspect. I love my 2 jobs, I have a wonderful new boyfriend (been together a little over 2 months)everything is working out. I just cant stop restricting and purging. I fight with myself in my head and end up doing it anyway.
Well tonight I have decided that I have had enough. No more. Im asking for help. Please. It took so much for me to ask.. I even debated that. any advice is wonderful